Listening to my body – part 2

It’s hard to tell whether I will lose some followers on this one, just because of how complicated this journey is getting. So I left off on part 1 telling you that my 1) entyvio infusions were being moved from 8 weeks to every 4 weeks 2) Im due to meet my Endo specialist and 3) I’ve taken the liberty of switching off of progestin-only Visanne (oral birth control) to a estrogen-progestin oral birth control called Minovral which seems to be keeping me on my cycle and has reduced my endo-belly.

Let’s start off with my endo visit exactly a week ago. For the sake of public scrutiny I will avoid mentioning names of my doctors. Let’s call my Endo specialist ‘Dr. E’ for now. Skipping ahead past the routine questions, Dr. E had a resident doctor come assess me first. To be fair, I took a cancelation endoscopy for an hour after this appointment so the doctors were rushing on my accord. The resident was interested in my birth control path, and agreed that putting myself on some form of birth control was the right idea, and certainly if Minovral had helped me in the past it was a good option. She also reiterated that I would use it to skip my periods as I had been, to reduce the ‘cycle’, and eliminate the bleeding which in turn should reduce new endometrial growth. This is key to the understanding of how the disease works. However, where we disagreed is her plan to attack the pain. She was comfortable assessing whether the birth control itself would reduce the pain and then we could address next steps in two weeks. My thinking was that birth control hadn’t worked in the past, Visanne certainly didn’t work, so going back to birth control as the line of defence was practically moving backwards. She called in Dr. E to help with the issue. I wasn’t being irate, I was being rational and she appreciated this. Meeting Dr. E was like meeting a celebrity. He has a fantastic reputation in the community and has overcome tremendous feats for women suffering from endometriosis that I was admittedly somewhat star struck when he walked into the room. Mom helped me gain my composure to address the pain question and this prompted him to get me to lie on the table and see where the pain is located.

Upon inspection I was able to show him that my lower left side, right around where my stitch for the ovarian suspension was, always hurts. Always. Every examination Ive had since my excision in March has resulted in me wincing in pain every time a doctor pokes in that general area. This was a red flag for Dr. E. He then asked me where my upper pain resided so I showed him the right side under my rib (which one could say is my right side of my diaphragm). Practically, this would align with the diaphragmatic endometrial lesions that were cauterize during my excision. Scientifically however, lesions on the diaphragm (so I learned) do not express pain on the diaphragm but refer pain to the right shoulder. This is where we paused for scientific clarity.

In Dr. E’s opinion, one should be pain free 6 months to a year after a thorough excision like the one I had. While the cauterizing did not effectively remove the endo on my diaphragm it should have – along with skipping my periods – significantly halted any growth or spreading of those implants. Dr. E also mentioned that doing surgery on a patient is usually refrained from IF the patient has NOT had this time frame (at minimum) of no pain, as it may point to other explanations of pain rather than it being a direct cause of the implants. Yikes. We agreed that we would order some scans to physically examine the state of the implants (for preparation of any future surgery) but that our primary goal (kind of what I was gunning for in the first place) was to address the pain.

Here is where my life turned upside down. Dr. E told me that there is a Neuroscientist who believes the body can learn to address pain in a constant fashion, even when the body doesn’t meet protection. For more information on this concept, Dr. Lorimer Moseley has created this fabulous video called “Tame the Beast”. (This link will open the video in a new window). Under this concept, Dr. E has administered a pain blocker to many women like myself who are feeling pain in an area that is perfectly healed and not in danger. With my eagerness, Dr. E’s Resident administered two long needles into my nerves associated with this over-firing of pain. It was such a weird feeling. Ugh! I was told that if it is the problem, I should get a rise in pain initially and then the pain should go away within 24 hours, for 4-6 weeks! Note that the pain did go up after the injections but only if I really pressed on the nerves. The pain went away 100% after the first 24 hours and I can happily report there has been no pain for ONE WHOLE WEEK!!!! With regards to the upper pain, the theory is this could also stem from the same problem but given its complex location I would need to be given a neuromodulator (similar overall function of the pain blocker). BUT we decided to hold off as this area is still under scrutiny by my GI.

Perfect Segway…

After this appointment to which I was numb from emotion, I quickly drove over to the hospital down the street for my endoscope. So, this was ordered by my GI (Lets call him Dr. G) to reexamine my pancreas and get to the bottom of this recurring acute pancreatitis. In some ways this would also help to rule out the theory of endometriosis on my pancreas but the rest was up in the air.

When I was about to be sedated the GI (Call him Dr C), asked me if the episodes of pancreatitis ever happened before I started on entyvio. The answer was no. He then told me that a recent publication (2018) showed 4 cases – two adult and two paediatric – of pancreatitis linked to Entyvio (Vedolizumab) and he suspects this may be the case with me. The endoscope was quick and dirty. When I started to come out of the fog, Dr, C waited behind to explain to me that the endoscope looked fine: no inflammation on my pancreas, no scarring, no signs of damage. This substantiated his theory that it could be from my medication and that if my infusion frequency has been moved to every 4 weeks this could exacerbate the pancreatitis. On this front, I have left it to Dr. C to let Dr. G know, and contact me for next steps. The challenge there will be having to take me off a medication that is working for my Colitis and figuring out which other medication will work.

Stay tuned for part 3.

Listening to my body – Part 1

With so many things happening to my body at once, I spend a great deal of time discerning between endometriosis pain, ulcerative colitis pain, anxiety, stress and just an off day. I run out of spoons a lot, and I am starting to look at my body with disdain – something I don’t even want to admit to myself. To put this all together Im starting to become unfamiliar with the body Im living in. Truth be told the last year has been one of the toughest emotional roller coasters of my life (even worse than that time my first husband cheated on me). But everything is coming to a head now…

Ulcerative Colitis

I have met with my GI. He has sat with me and taken all of my specifics down. He was wonderful. He listened to me talk about how my body feels over the course of 8 weeks between infusions and agrees with me that they should be moved to every 4 weeks. This should mitigate the symptoms that creep up around week 5. With the looming possible Primary Sclerosing Colingits (PSC) he wants to ensure we do a colonoscopy every year, with intermittent Calprotectin testing and blood work to stay on top of the whole system.

Pancreatitis

He also wants to get to the bottom of my pancreatitis. We talked about the possibility that this could be endometriosis infiltrating the pancreas. His explanation, which I agree is sound, hypothesizes that the endometrial lesions would have to infiltrate deep enough into the pancreas to cause a blockage or some physical inflammatory response for this to be the cause of my elevated (spike in) pancreatic enzymes. That being said he is willing to look into it, have me looked at by a pancreatic specialist and communicate with my endo specialist to have my body examined from different angles/groups of thought.

Endometriosis

Well, see the rest of my body wants to cooperate but my endometriosis is still a stubborn bitch. On Jan 10th I finally meet my endometriosis specialist and will hopefully get clarity on the chronic pain I have down below, the periods that are still happening despite the Visanne, and the diaphragmatic pain that’s a thorn in my side (figuratively and literally).

Leading up to the holidays my endo belly was killing me! I was almost at 3 weeks of the most uncomfortable endo belly. I mean, I went online and had to buy new pants that would allow for the extra circumference I just developed. And with no sight of this going away, I was getting super depressed. Nothing I tried helped. I thought at first it might be soy milk but I took that out of my diet. I am on gluten free, dairy free, sugar free meals so what the heck was causing this? I wasn’t doing anything out of the norm, and I could tell it wasn’t colon inflammation.

On Christmas Day my uterus decided it wanted to give me a full on period – the first one I’ve had in over 8 months. FML! I knew the Visanne wasn’t working as I was still having a ‘cycle’ without the bleeding. Now… this?? Screw Visanne, Im done. I decided to stop the visanne altogether as it wasn’t providing me any help whatsoever. Three days into the bleeding my period pain was way too debilitating and I had to put my thinking cap on. I wasn’t going to be seeing the specialist for another 2 weeks so think fast. I decided that since birth control is usually the first line of defence against period pain, I decided to pop one of my Minovral oral birth control pills. This way I was getting some sort of hormone into my body, despite it also having estrogen there.

My other line of thinking was that maybe visanne – or rather the lack of estrogen – was somehow behind this outrageous endo belly. This theory was based on nothing at all, other than listening to my body and knowing how it might be reacting to certain changes over time. In case my specialist thought this theory was crazy, I catalogued my belly over the course of a few weeks leading up to my appointment.

 

One day off Visanne
Two days off Visanne – no difference yet 😦
One week off Visanne – things are looking up!
Two weeks off Visanne. I feel human again!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So now I wait…

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Putting Humpty Dumpty back together again

The Ulcerative Colitis Journey between week 6 and 8 of my Entyvio infusions

Being on biologics is a love-hate relationship. When the infusion goes in there is this dread of ‘what symptoms will I feel this time?’. I end up feeling this dull ache in my belly (even when I prepare by taking ibuprofen and gallons of water) followed by an afternoon of sleep and fetal position. It’s not really a pain, its more like my body has recruited the full immune army to attack this foreign substance in my body and they are just telling me ‘shh shh go to sleep now, we can handle this’. After about a half-day of delusional insomnia I end up feeling better. I mean, a lot better. To anyone who hasn’t had an infusion before, it kinda feels like someone put Humpy Dumpty back together again. I have a bit more mobility, I fear less about diarrhea and I can eat a few more things I couldn’t during week 6-8.

But then week 6 hits and – bear with me as I try to explain this – I feel like parts of my colon are chipping away day by day. First its layers of my mucosal lining that start to increase the magnitude and the frequency of bowel movements. Then there is this dull ache that starts on my descending colon – a pain that nobody should ever say they have because nobody should ever be able to feel their descending colon; that’s a thing! Then that pain just starts to spread a bit and reveals some adjacent pain near the base of my colon (the spot just before you poop). By week 7 I start count the hours until my next infusion. Literally everything I eat can be felt moving its way through my digestive system and makes the most atrocious gurgling sounds. People say your food takes 24 hours to pass through your system. Well… Ive seen meals with very distinct colors make its way through me in about 3 hours during week 7. The latter part of my colon is just full of bruises (biologically probably exposed ulcers) so eating is not entirely pleasurable even when its things to spoil myself with. Speaking of which, there is no room to spoil ones self during week 7 because during week 7 your body is not forgiving. Maybe your body could just slightly scold you on week 3 or 4 with an unpleasant poop or a smelly fart, or worse a sleepless night. But not week 7. No no week 7 would mean chronic pain and constant diarrhea followed by sweats, shivers, and cries.

The other thing that intensifies during weeks 6-8 – for those of us blessed souls battling both endometriosis and ulcerative colitis – is the risk of bleeding ulcers. If in fact the entyvio is gone from my system and there is absolutely nothing protecting my colon, then there is absolutely zero chance I am popping any naproxen. For those of you who have been following me, I have been given strict permission (yes strict) from both my endo specialist and my GI to take up to two 250ml tablets a day of naproxen when absolutely necessary for my diaphragmatic endometriosis pain but must stop immediately upon signs of blood in my stool. However, on week 6 and more so on week 7 I don’t even risk it. I suffer through the pain – maybe pop a hydromorphone if I really cant stand the pain – but my colon is so vulnerable during weeks these weeks that the thought of me having a flair and starting all over again is cringe-worthy.

I sat in the clinic today, watching the sun reflecting off the trees through the window as my infusion started to drip through my veins. I noticed at some random moment that I started to smile because in this messed up life that I now live in where I am required to sit in this chair every 8 weeks, I was just so thankful that I reached week 8 and I could reset the timer again.

A pendulum between two diseases

Between Ulcerative Colitis and Endometriosis

Where did I leave off?

Oh yes. So I kept you hanging with the MRI results, and still no word from either doctor.

On Monday morning I called to make an appointment with both my GI and my endo specialist. My GI had just returned from holidays and I was kind of expecting to hear back from her about all that had happened while she was away – and the pile of files she must have obtained from the various tests I had done – but instead they booked me in to see her later this week. My endo specialist doesnt have an opening until the end of August!!!

Monday and Tuesday were much like all the other days. Even keel pain, and some flickering of something down below (near my ovaries). The biggest thing though was intense (INTENSE!!!) exhaustion. I could barely stay awake. Monday I woke up at 7:30, did some work, and then fell asleep from 10am to 4pm in the evening. Tuesday, a similar pattern (shhh… dont tell my boss).

Wednesday was starting out to be like the others, but my boyfriend was sadly due to fly back to Ottawa, and mom was flying in shortly after to take over the ‘sicko’ shift. I coaxed myself to get up and do some things in the house; some real work, some chores, etc. Greg walked out the door, I had this shooting pain in my pelvic area, went pee, and… started bleeding. Spotting only, but then my ovaries were on fire. Great! Arent I freed from this burden by taking my Visanne every day? As the hours progressed before mom showed up, the bleeding remained a slow dribble but the intensity of the pain got worse, and with it so did the abdominal pain. This was quite the lose lose situation. Mom showed up finally and we somehow mustered up the strength to gab for hours until I called mercy and had to go to sleep. A restless sleep at that.

A pendulum between two diseases

Thursday morning (today) I prepared for my appointment with the GI. Here is what we concluded:

  • the pancreas and liver, and their associated markers, all look normal
  • my colon is happy as can be; no word of ‘remission’ yet but my CRP, Calprotectin and all other markers indicate that my colon is not inflamed, and that without diarrhea and bleeding the entyvio appears to be working.
  • so this further supports the notion that this could be endo, which is out of my GI’s expertise and hands.
  • Oh, and I still have what they consider early stage ‘possible’ PSC which calls for a colonoscopy and an MRI once a year to check on any emergence of odd cells or inflammation.
  • As a last effort on her behalf I am to take Dexilant for two weeks to address whether this is acid based (ie an ulcer or something related). If the drug works we see if there is time for a scope and if the drug doesnt work it further supports that its not a colon issue and more an endo issue.

 

The one good thing out of this is that I am able to try Neproxin for my pain, which was my saving grace before my excision surgery. The downside to this is the drug is advil-based so it may cause bleeding and diarrhea. So I am to monitor this very carefully and see what happens. Again, I will keep you posted.

My body is attacking itself

Having multiple autoimmune diseases

I was born a fantastically healthy baby, with no jaundice, asthma, or abnormalities that would see me through to adulthood. Until I was 14 and the much raved about menstrual periods started.  I was overjoyed by the fact that I was part of the club that I didnt bother mentioning to anyone else the pain and flow that accompanied mine. At the age of 14, I was sent to the hospital with period pain and was pre-diagnosed by a brilliant doctor, a disease called Endometriosis. At the time we didnt know much about it but several years later the industry learned that it was an autoimmune disease. Up until recently it was believed that endometriosis was endometrial tissue that escaped back inside the body – outside the uterus – onto organs. But now, we have learned that endometriosis is endometrial- LIKE tissue that forms on organs out of bloody nowhere, and acts like your endometrium – blood, pain and all. WTF!

Starting around my 25th birthday I started having very rare, intense pain in my upper abdomen. It would strike out of nowhere, often accompanied with alcohol, and would send me to the hospital. The pain was followed by throwing up, blacking out, and waking up with a doctor telling me I drank to much and sent me home. This happened about once a year for 4 years. Doctors came up with everything from alcoholism to anxiety to phantom pains. Nah…. didnt add up.

Just shy of 2018 I was diagnosed with severe ulcerative colitis. Ok this one threw me. I mean I had no idea and apparently I have had it for years. I just assumed the diarrhea and wrenching pain was from my endo. Ive since been treated with Entyvio and so far so good. Well,… until last week.

Right after Canada day – no alcohol in site – my upper abdominal pain kicked back in. I had remnants of it when they tried to give me a 5-asa back in November. And it kind of feels like my diaphragmatic endo. But its not. I assure you. This pain has lasted 9 days and counting.

At first they thought it was pancreatitis but they ruled that out with a CT Scan. They are still exploring PSC which they think they found back in November. That should be ruled out on Thursday with an MRcp. And its not my gallbladder which was taken out back in 2007 which later was hypothesized was due to endo and not gallstones.

Which organ is next? Why is my body attacking itself? What is the cause and are they all linked? IS there one cure to fix it all?

Where did my Entyvio go?

What happens when your biologic starts wearing off

Those of us with autoimmune diseases know our bodies so well, and while we often cannot explain what we are feeling, we know something is up. Starting in February I had my three loading doses of Entyvio, and then experienced my first 8 week interval without the medication. So in theory I have had 4 doses of entyvio. I can honestly say I started feeling results after the first or second infusion, and was excited that things were moving in the right direction.

But this last 8 week period has been a doozy. After 5 weeks I could start to feel some symptoms (or maybe they were side effects) of the drug. At first my GI was concerned that the extreme bloating around week 5 (see my post about my belly!) was a side effect of the medication. She had me do a calprotectin test (ugh, thats a blog post in itself), then another, and I still havent heard back from her so, thats a thing. Meanwhile, I reached out to the lovely folks on my facebook group and they guided me towards activated charcoal pills. Folks, I kid you not this stuff is amazing! It is designed to work with the bacteria that converts certain foods into gases such as methane, and it absorbs the gases. While it doesnt act on any cytokines or inflammatory factors it definitely reduces the bloating by way of the gases.

Unfortunately around week 7 the charcoal was no longer doing the trick; there was more happening than just bloating. First it was upper colon pain, which I was scared it may have been liver pain as they havent ruled out PSC yet and this pain was very prevalent back in November during my diagnosis. So I went to the hospital, and my blood work was all normal (CRP levels to come, and no Calprotectin obviously). They discharged me, and that night I started developing radiating leg pain, and joint pain. I became so tired, I didnt know what to do.

One day before my next infusion (yesterday) I was scheduled to hop on a plane and get back to Vancouver from Ottawa (thats across the continent for those of you not familiar with Canadian Geography) and that didnt happen. Just as I was approaching the airport my nausea became so bad, and I wasnt sure I could make it through the airport without either hurling or fainting. My first instinct was to call the Innomar clinic that administers my Entyvio infusions and asked them if they could fit me in that night or the next morning. They were so kind! They squeezed me in for this morning, and contacted the Vancouver site to let them know I would be having my infusion in Ottawa.  I also had to call the Vancouver General Hospital to let them know I wouldnt be back in time for my MRI (for my PSC) and they too were very lovely. They rebooked me somehow for next week.

Today I received my infusion, met the nurses that will be administering my infusions come September when I move back to Ottawa, and have done literally nothing but sleep all day!!! I mean, all day! Pretty sure I have been delirious for days, and may have even attempted to write some emails that I cannot remember (lol). The pain has not gone away, but the leg pain has, and the joint pain is lessening. Hopefully this is a lesson learned, and something tangible I can take back to my GI to optimise my treatment frequency.

My first GI follow up was no gem

Initial GI visits after Diagnosis of IBD

First let me start off by saying I am so lucky to have this GI. She is smart, thinks outside the box, and has very good bedside manner. She had seen me when I was admitted into the ER and performed my colonoscopy. Unfortunately throughout the 10 days I was at the hospital, she had planned vacation and was not able to see me through the duration.

In any case, she scheduled a longer meeting with me this afternoon to go over the plan. I told her about the mouth sores, the seemingly painful bowel movements and the cramping. She was not impressed with the progress so decided that the Salofalk was probably not going to be a long term solution for me. Recall I had already tried another mesalomine so we had done our due diligence in this category of drugs. Her suggestion was to start me on a biologic – Entyvio – which is administered as an infusion rather than oral pills. I will now have to have this administered at a special clinic. Dang!

The next big thing that happened during the appointment was that we went over the MRcP results which I was led to believe came back negative. Turns out there may be slight indication of possible primary sclerosing cholangitis (PSC). The stats tell me that a very very high percentage of those with PSC will come to develop IBD, whereas only 4% of those with IBD will develop PSC. This I can handle, but in people with PSC it turns out there is also an increased chance in developing colon cancer. And THEREFORE I will be enduring colonoscopies much more frequently than the average bear. Holy Crap! This is when I grabbed for a tissue and took a deep breath. I can handle information like this but I dont take lightly to the C word.

To come full circle, until the folks at Entyvio call me I am to up my dosage of Salofalk to 8 pills (4g) taken all at once, once a day (rather than the 1g/2 pills taken three times a day). The rest is to remain the same and I am to continue on the prednisone weening. Also, nothing to do about the mouth sores and hopefully the Entyvio will fix this too.